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im not looking forward into anything now.
im doing things that im not suppose t be doing.
dont ask me why.
i jus dnoe tha reason.



i need you like i always do.
i need you to cheer me up.
i need you to make me laugh.
i need you to tell me what to do.
i want to go out with you everyday like before.
i want to take trains with you for no reason.
i want to bully you.
i want to kick you, beat you and pinch you.
i like to throw my temper at you.
i like to bully you.
i like to insult people with with you.
i like to keep your stupid things.
i want things to be like before.
i want this and i want that.
but can i get what i want.


like wht i said, things aint tha same anymore. i dnoe tha reason why we wil end up like this. somehow, i really dont wish to see you today AT ALL. you knw me the best. you knw what i want. you want wht am i thinking abt and you also knw how t hurt me the most huh. wel done. thats not the point. i really need you now. sigh.




marilyn was able to feel at 10:50 PM

be gentle